Writing

I started writing a journal in my teens because the authors I was reading at the time told me to. They said it  would help with what I had been through and where I wanted to go. I’ve written daily through the majority of my life.

I started writing poetry to get laid. My feeble attempts at poetry lead to comparisons and an introduction to the work of Harry Crosby. The study of Harry’s life and works influenced my own path more than I would like to admit. More examples of gestures toward liberation without footing in justice.

I started freelance writing in the oughts to build my work as a massage practitioner and yoga instructor. I expanded this into my work with justice-centered organizations after starting our family.

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It’s 3am

I wake at 3 am everyday. That still sounds extreme and unbelievable to me. But, almost religiously, I have done so daily for nearly 14 years. It is one of the only ways that I survive in this place. Though my oppositional stance towards sleep began very early on in my time here, the practice …

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Just When…

Just when I thought I couldn’t hurt any more, that my loneliness had reached some kind of divine perfection. All at once suddenly finding parts on my supposed heart that were unbroken. And all the old defenses swing into play on the stage; “I just wanted to be alone anyway”, “you should have seen what he did to …

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Timefix:001 Halo Burger

Timefix:001 Halo Burger I ate the burger. I’d been a vegetarian for years. He chuckled smugly. I ate the burger and sat there listening to him talk ceaselessly. Hands full, his beard-stroking voice repeated why we always stopped here on these short road trips to Flint. He’d brag about having an affair with a married …

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The Silent World of Suffering

I hurt you, I know I hurt you. ‘Sorry’ has replaced the name of god on these silent lips. My silent self, initiated by a prophet, My sacred body, sworn to the laws of the witch, A dagger drawn to the stubble of my neck. Every night I betray these oaths to lay in this …

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Bhodisattva at the gates of Hell

When writing for the Lab, I used to pause and invite the reader into the space.  I’d invite them to take a moment to breathe, stretch and establish a mental distinction between what they had been doing and what they were about to read. I would issue a similar gesture with this piece. The Query …

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On the passage of time and your absence

There isn’t a morning where I don’t wake and think of you, what you are doing, if you are even still alive. It’s a little ritual I do as I remember my place in this space upon waking, like making coffee. I’ve had to learn to live with this. I assume it is the same …

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Black moves first, rivers flow upstream 

There is no such thing as a victory that does not end up making us them and them we. There is something in the air, a shift, a turn, an opening. We no longer have expectations but welcome change for opportunity to interrupt and intercept. WE have inspired an illusion to become more real. Anyone …

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Chess Racism Patriarchy Resources

As I do with most things, I’ve got to research a little before I commit. I’m considering supporting an elementary/middle school chess club in the spring. I introduced chess to our kids as early as possible and have enjoyed watching them put it all together and learn to the point where they can challenge my …

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AngR

Why do I stop myself from cursing you? I cannot adequately express my anger toward your god. I have, since my youth, been utterly disgusted by this intergenerational  failure of intellect. Why would you give up everything you have for this temporal bullshit; capitalism and christianity. And why would you put it before your blood? The god that …

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Space and Chess

It’s been challenging to keep this up and meet my first big deadline of the year. I’ve managed to find peace with my level of engagement and ability. When I’m working on a project I typically have to put everything into it to get it done. While I don’t want to get too wonky about …

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